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 Thirty-five
years ago, Jayne Smith was in the hospital in labor with her second
baby. In the process, she experienced clinical death and had a
near-death experience. The following is taken from her video entitled
A Moment of Truth
where she describes her near-death experience. In my opinion, her
near-death experience is one of the most profound near-death experiences
I have ever come across. After reading about her near-death experience,
I am certain you will agree. Information on how to obtain a video tape
of her describing her near-death experience can be found below. On the
video tape, she answers some very profound questions concerning life and
life after death.
The Ecstasy of God
 I
was totally aware. I was in blackness. I couldn't see anything. I was
thinking to myself, "This isn't the way it is supposed to be. I'm not
supposed to know anything and I do. What on earth has happened?"
At that point I felt something leave my body. It was a whoosh. It went
up through the top of my head. I could feel it and I could hear it. Just
a gentle whoosh. At that point I found myself standing in a kind of gray
mist. Then I knew I had died.
The memory of this experience is seared into my very soul. When I
found myself standing in this gray mist with the realization that I had
died I remembered feeling so overjoyed, so thrilled, because I knew that
even though I was what we call "dead", I was still very much alive. Very
much alive. I was totally aware. I began to pour out these feelings of
thanksgiving. I wasn't doing it verbally, but it seemed that the very
essence of me was saying "Thank you, thank you, God for setting it up
this way, that I really am immortal. I was not annihilated."
I was involved in this tremendous pouring forth of gratitude and joy
and as that was going inside me, this white light began to infiltrate my
consciousness. It came into me. It seemed I went out into it. I expanded
into it as it came into my field of consciousness. There was nothing I
was aware of except this brilliant white light. The light brought with
it the most incredible feeling of total love, total safety, total
protection. I was just enveloped in it. I remember feeling almost
cradled by it. It was so dynamic it was almost palpable.
As I existed in this white light, in this incredible love, I began to
be rapturous. The rapture built. The bliss built. My consciousness began
to expand with the bliss of it all. Suddenly there came into my field of
consciousness an entire field of knowledge It was like a whole block of
knowledge that just simply came in and settled itself on me. I knew,
what takes several sentences to tell, but it didn't come in several
sentences - it came all in one piece. What I knew was that I was
immortal, that I was eternal, that I was indestructible, that I always
had been, that I always will be, and that there was no way in this world
I could ever be lost.
It was impossible for me to fall into a crack in the universe
somewhere and never be heard from again. I just knew that I was utterly
safe and I always had been forever and ever.
When that block of knowledge was digested by me, as it were, another
block of knowledge came in. A whole field of knowledge came in to my
being and what I knew then was that the universe runs according to a
perfect plan. I knew that the plan was perfect. Everything that we think
about as being hard to understand or unfair or cruel or whatever, that
was really all without meaning. I know that is very difficult, but I
knew this. I understood it. I comprehended it in a way that when I came
back from the experience I really couldn't comprehend anymore. I
understood that all of the things that we worry about and concern us, we
really don't have to worry about at all. There is a perfect plan and the
plan is working itself out in its perfection.
Then I simply remember I became more blissful, more rapturous, more
ecstatic. I was just filling and filling with this light and love that
was in the light. The dynamics of this light are not static at all. They
are so dynamic and so much going on in there of love and joy and
knowledge. As you take it into yourself, or as it goes into you and you
receive it, your ecstasy level just becomes tremendous.
I knew that I had lost all sense of having a body. It was just my
consciousness, sort of pure and free floating, and I did not think at
all during this part of the experience. I had no thoughts. I was a
receiving station. I merely felt and absorbed and took in and did not
think at all. I reached the point in the rapture of it all where I
thought to myself suddenly, the first thought.
"I wonder how much more of this I can stand before I shatter?"
With that thought, the light began to recede. So, the universe will
not let us shatter. We cannot take in more of this bliss and joy than we
are able to handle at a time.
The Beautiful Meadow
 As
the light began to recede, the rapture that I had built up also began to
dissipate. For a couple of seconds, I could not remember what was going
on. I remember thinking to myself, "I don't know how I got here. I can't
remember what's going on." I didn't know if I had been in that light for
a minute of a day or a hundred years. I think the force of all that
energy just produced a condition in me of amnesia for a couple of
seconds. But that was not allowed to last very long either.
Within a second or two, I found myself standing in an absolutely
beautiful green meadow. I knew then what was going on. I knew once again
who I was, that I had died. My amnesia period was over with.
I stood there in this gorgeous meadow and I
remember that the light there was different from the light here on
earth. Though it was not that brilliant white light in which I was
involved, it was a more beautiful light. There was a goldenness to this
light. I remember the sky was very blue. I don't recall seeing the sun.
The colors were extraordinary. The green of the meadow was fantastic.
The flowers were blooming all around and they had colors that I had
never seen before. I was very aware that I had never seen these colors
before and I was very excited about it.
I thought I had seen all colors. I was thrilled to death of the beauty
that was incredible. In addition to the beautiful colors, I could see a
soft light glowing within every living thing. It was not a light that
was reflected from the outside from a source, but it was coming from the
center of this flower. Just this beautiful, soft light. I think I was
seeing the life inside of everything.
When I finished looking at this exquisite beauty, I started to walk. I
had only taken a few steps before I saw that there was in front of me a
hill, a low hill. There were perhaps 18 to 20 people standing on the
hill. They were dressed in robes, very simple, I suppose Grecian type
robes. They were also in all these beautiful colors. There were men and
women - more men than women I don't know why. I thought about this a
little bit, but there were both men and women there. There was no one
that I knew, but then I had no close emotional ties on the other side so
it is not surprising that there was no one there that I knew.
I felt to myself, "Oh, I want to talk with them." It seemed that
immediately I was there on the top of the hill. I don't know whether I
was able to just glide there effortlessly or whether I only had to think
I wanted to be there and I was there. What I do remember was that I did
not have to climb the hill. There was no effort involved in this.
The Moment of Truth
 As
I found myself at the top of the hill, I saw that over on the horizon
and just a little bit lower on the horizon, there was a city. I realized
in some way that this was more than just a city, that what I was seeing
actually represented a world. I wondered, "Was that the world I just
came from or the one I am going to?" I never had a chance to find out
because right at that moment, 3 or 4 of the men that were in this group
of people over on the hill, came to me and we met.
I said to them, "I know what has happened. I realize that I am dead. I
know what's going on."
One man in the group did all the talking to me. He was quite tall,
taller than the rest. I remember the robe he was wearing was purple. He
had a white fringe of hair that went around his head. The top of his
head was bald. He had an absolute marvelous face. It was very noble,
very kind, what we would think of as a very spiritual face. He also had
about him a great deal of authority, so that I felt I was talking to
someone that I could trust completely.
When I said to him, "I know what's going on. I know that I have died,"
he said, "Yes, that's true, but you are not going to be staying here. It
isn't time for you to be here yet."
I must tell you that when we talked, we did not move our mouths. I can
remember that I only had to have the impulse that contained the things
that I wanted to say and he would immediately be able to get that and
answer me. Even though he was not moving his mouth when he talked with
me, I could hear the sound of his voice in my inner ear. I know what he
sounded like. It was a mental transmission, yet I could hear what he
sounded like. For a long, long time, I could remember the sound of his
voice.
I said to him again, "Everything that has
happened to me since I crossed over is so beautiful. Everything is so
perfect. What about my sins?"
He said, "There are no sins, not the way you think of them on earth.
The only thing that has any meaning here is what you think."
Then he asked me a question. "What is in your heart?"
Then in some incredible way that I don't understand at all, I was able
to look deeply inside myself, really into the very core of me to my
essence. I saw that what was there was love, nothing else. My core was
perfect love, loving perfection. I had complete love and acceptance for
everything. I saw my own gentleness, tenderness, harmlessness. I simply
was perfect and loving.
I said to him, "Of course!" I felt I was connecting with knowledge
that I had known before. I wondered how on earth had I forgotten
anything that important. I have known that.
I said, "Can you tell me what everything is all about - the whole
world - everything?"
He said, "Yes."
He told me in only three sentences at the most. It was so simple. I
understood that immediately. I had total comprehension of what he was
saying to me. I remember again saying to him, "Of course!" Then there
was that feeling again of connecting with knowledge I had once had. I
wondered how on earth did I forget that.
I said to him, "Since I am not going to be able to stay, there are so
many people I want to take this back to. May I take this all back with
me?"
He said, "You may take the answer to the first question back, the one
about sins. But the answer to the second one, you are not going to be
able to remember."
The next thing I knew, there was a tremendous banging in my head. It
was loud, it was fast, and it was extremely irritating. It went on for
just a few seconds - a loud bang, bang, bang, bang. Then that was over
and there was a sort of electronic click in my ear. I will never forget
the sound of that click because I remember thinking that it sounded
almost like a tape recorder. When the click clicked, that was it, I was
back and I opened my eyes. My doctor was standing over me and he was
doing something that was extremely uncomfortable.
After the experience, I have never been able to remember the specific
two or three sentences I was told. I have tried and I have tried for
years after this experience to make a concerted effort to try,
especially after I went to bed at night, when I would be lying there in
that not quite asleep state. And I never could. Finally, I just stopped
trying to do that.
But, I do think I know what he was telling
me even though I cannot recall the actual two or three sentences. I know
that it has to do with love. I believe it has to do with what I was
enabled to see when he said, "What is in your heart?" I looked inside
myself and saw that I was perfect love.
Now this does not apply to just me. It applies to all human beings. That
is what we are. That is our core. This love, this perfection, this
God-ness. I believe that what it is all about is that the world will
keep turning and we will have all these experiences and it will go on
forever and ever and ever. As we bring that into our consciousness and
have it remain there all the time, our connection with God will be
there, not somewhere in our unconscious. We will be consciously aware of
who we are all the time. I think that's what the journey is. |
